Unshakable Shift: Surrender Fuels The Surge
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Written by: Liz Mortan Blake
June - at the midpoint of our year – is the center point of the Year’s pendulum moving through January to December. As the pendulum approaches that gravitational midpoint it will enter an energy shift. June sits at that point of energy transfer, a marker for turnabout. From death to life, going to coming, fasting to feast, holding on to releasing. But that transfer can only happen by true alignment in the cog-and-wheel inner workings.
As sons of God, our inner workings are refinement in purity, surrender, trust, growth in humility, strength, and stability under pressure. Time can be a Taskmaster, but it is also a gift as the vehicle that delivers fruit.
This reminds me of fasting.
Fasting is not glamorous. For me, it feels like dying for a while, like a long pause between life, not high energy. But there is a strange point where it turns: something is let go, and you feel something new. Here a story of fasting… like the midpoint of the pendulum’s swing.
I have fasted consumer debt, I’ve fasted food with our WOWLife Church community, and recently realized that a long, hard experience transmuted into a fast where I’m getting treasure that was otherwise unobtainable …. An entirely new perspective. Since January I have been in ‘unreasonable’ mental rest… Something like a suspension of effort where I can feel a shift of energy and lightness, like nearing a pendulum’s midpoint. But only back in November I had hit my ‘empty,’ facing possibilities that terrified me and felt could even ‘take me out’ this time.
For years now, life has been a fight. I learned resourcefulness, independence, and great persistence by necessity, and have paid a high cost reinventing my career several times so that I can deliver at high end value. Nevertheless, years of hardship compounded with two major surgeries, extracted a high toll in disappointment that led to feeling numb, was I defective? Meanwhile, I had already found a place in WOWLife Church where I felt authentically loved and appreciated for the first time by church leadership. I’ve immersed myself in Christian Mystery School, Coach Groups, intensive 5-Day Programs, Dreaming Programs, and enthusiastically serving wherever I could help the ‘WOW’ movement. For the first time in my life, I could feel some spiritual growth and not just be in my head! I knew I belonged. And then… Bishop Kirby began teaching us on the Church in Apostolic Order.
That’s when I saw that despite all my immersion, I was still in ‘de facto’ relationship with this church, and that was not enough. But proximity over time had softened my defenses so I was gradually able to face my layers of protective walls and old complexes against ‘church,’ which had lodged deep from earlier disappointment and disillusion. I had then stepped away from this deep-rooted offence and intentionally, privately, gave myself to this church in a way that echoes the marriage commitment… Very different from a perpetual ‘date’ (fair-weather relationship).
Meanwhile, even in 2025 two areas of my life were still not in order. Life was getting harder and I could not find my solution. I practiced rest with a touch of denial. My ‘cogwheel’ inner workings were still not truly aligned. Performance often popped up from triggers, in its many clever disguises… bringing me back to, “HOW do you get to abide in this surrender, trust, humility, strength?”
Back to fasting…. My nervous system had locked fasts to deprivation. In my late teens I had regularly starved myself for days, and to keep my body attractively with having four children, I strictly imposed many diets. Consequently, I now abhor deprivation and dieting and avoided spiritual fasts. Added to that was deprivation of material and enjoyment after years of success at the top of a direct selling company where I earned the ability to buy what we wanted - consumer heaven. Then, my marriage and our lives crashed (put simply). One result for me was insurmountable debt. From that pain, I since abstained from all consumer debt. Through discipline and intention, I practiced contentment, patience, and learnt endurance with little. But it was tough. And nothing I tried was enough to build a life of dreams and choices I wanted. This not fasting, it was hardship ….
The pendulum was still moving down towards the weighted center where opposing forces meet. A place where we can sit in doublemindedness or choose purity of heart and mind. I knew in my heart the Master Clockmaker sees all and tenderly cares for our refinement.
At a point, I knew I was doing all in my power to bring about a solution that fit my life…. But what if it came to nothing?... Surrender is the hardest word for an independent woman. It is not just a feeling, its surrendering outcome, letting disappointment go when rejected, surrendering material choices. Centrally, it’s stewarding my will.… It conflicted with my need for tangible outcomes, and I also take seriously the parable of the talents – “from those who have been given much, much is required” – and I am high in Capability. Just a few months ago, I surrendered this standard and even the dread of effects of a negative outcome. I let go of “How long…?”
I knew surrender was the only way to present God a blank canvas to work Himself through me. It brought release and rest.
I have mused in thankfulness for the experience over years of bringing me to know God in new ways. But since January, with the pendulum of 2026 starting its swing, a profound sense of rest – like being in quiet waters - set in. An intimate knowledge that only these years of waiting could bring me a gift of such value, and that shortcuts would have robbed me of this. “For whoever has entered God's rest has also rested from his works as God did from his. Let us therefore strive to enter that rest, so that no one may fall by the same sort of disobedience.” (Hebrews 4:10, 11). This was not giving up on ‘life’ but holding all loosely.
As a resourceful, goal-oriented person who has invested far more in my Personal Development than I care to share, the truth is I could truly only know God as my Source and Completion without the illusion of my own resources. As this consciousness began infusing my being, a presence as peace imprinted my nervous system. Through pain and shame, I have told the Lord many times I would not swap this experiential knowledge for any other prize.
This is where my experience of hardship transmuted to a Fast.
And now, part of me finds pleasure in the ‘pause;’ not rejecting it as a weak time in my flesh but flowing in simple lifestyle.
Psalm 16:6,8 “The lines have fallen to me in pleasant places; Yes, I have a good inheritance…. I have set the Lord always before me; Because He is at my right hand, I shall not be moved. At the same time, another part of me is ready to get on and run at a high level again. But the urgency has gone.
I felt the transition from inner conflict to a Fast when I laid down an outcome. Like Bishop Kirby has taught us, we fast from what we desire and that our appetite runs to.
So, we move into June …. Marking the midway in this year; also, my birthday month. June sits as the center of gravity in 2026 where we can clash or choose to align with the turn in energy; turnabout ourselves from death to life, fasting to feast, grasping to releasing. Thus, June points to hope. Hope is also my middle name - an irony for the years I almost had none. Biblical hope is not wishful thinking, but a confident expectation rooted in God’s unearned grace.
1 Peter 1:13 “Therefore, preparing your minds for action, and being sober-minded, set your hope fully on the grace that will be brought to you at the revelation of Jesus Christ.”
This hope is very real as I continually experience unfolding revelation of my location “in Christ.”
Humility and surrender are the place of safety, when in Christ. His Spirit hovering over us births hope, enlightening new vision in dulled eyes to ignite the coming months. It is our personal adventure to discover and thrive in the great Blueprint from above and to fulfill the individual roles we’ve been uniquely shaped to fill….
Psalm 139:16 "Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them". In June, we are at the center point, “in Christ.”
PROPHETIC INVITATION
June continues to be refinement in purity. Trust and character are tested, and growth comes through humility and surrender rather than effort. What remains strengthened. Authority increases through openness, and stability forms under pressure.
CHALLENGE
June carries a profound theme of choices, each carrying its particular energy. You get to choose if you will lay down the tensions of striving – self-determination, self-protection, self-sourcing – and step into the inheritance of Christ and his Body – taking responsibility, but not control.
There is a serenity in living committed and coherent. What could it look like to surrender your fears to the surety in Christ, with so much shaking? What does it look like to be planted in Surety by trust? Consider the message of June’s midpoint pause in momentum - what do you need to resolutely let go of, or to take hold of?
“I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.” (Galatians 2:20)
“And he made from one man every nation of mankind to live on all the face of the earth, … that they should seek God, and perhaps feel their way toward him and find him. Yet he is actually not far from each one of us, for ‘In him we live and move and have our being’” (Act 17:26-28)
Be strengthened in June
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