Manifesting May’s Breaking Forth Miracles in Growth

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May 1
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Written By Jeanie F. Marrow

Psalm 139:13 For you formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother’s womb.

May is the month of visible growth and blossoming. For me it began with the breaking of my mother’s amniotic fluid which was protecting me for an appointed time to come forth into the earth. There I wore a human suit that housed my spirit. As I emerged, time seemed to fly by swiftly, and I grew and learned many things. At the age of twelve, I found myself waking up out of a five-month coma. My mother then rushed all of her children, three of us at that time, to a local church that was baptizing the youth. I remembered them asking me to say these words: “Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior,” the next words they spoke were, “in the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit” as I was immersed into a lake of water.

When I came up from the water, something mysterious happened to me. I sensed I was in an indescribably peaceful place. I felt a slight tingling sensation in my body, a lightness. It felt like I went somewhere as I was raised from the water. I started to look around, wondering where my family was. I then slushed through the water in their direction as I walked out of the lake. My eyes gazed around, looking at the people there and saw things on them I could not understand. Painful things I felt from the crowd as I got closer to the people then I heard many voices, but no one was talking except the man in the lake baptizing people. “Hmmmm,” I thought, “am I still in a coma or am I dreaming this?”

I have been dreaming since I was a young child, possibly since age five or six. I shared my dreams with my Mother, until I sensed she became uncomfortable with what I was telling her. So, I stopped sharing them with her and began writing them out, looking for a pattern as best I could at eight years old.

I then began having full-blown movies in my mind’s eye. I would find myself staring into space, seeing full-blown vivid movies about family members or friends of my parents, as well as other random visions that later I would experience them unfold. I was not sure if my imagination was creating this or if it was real. They came often, and the dreams increased as well. I began to share them with my Dad and asked him, “How do I have the ability to know these things?” He replied, “I’m not sure because I have dreams too, but not like yours.”

A day came that I had a dream of my grandfather passing away. It was very detailed, so when I woke up that morning, I shared it with my sister-in-law. She was a bit shaken by the details; it must have been heavy for her because she told my Mom. The next day, my Mother received a call from her sister, who gave her details of my grandfather’s passing. Immediately, she called me downstairs and asked me how I knew this information. I told her I had a dream. I sensed she became frustrated with me, not understanding how I got this knowledge. I then realized I had an inner voice in me that guided me as I progressed in age. I began to ask my Dad questions. He said, “God is in this,” and went to find a Bible to read to me. I then found myself drawn to the words he was reading to me. I began sitting on the floor next to his chair, listening to him speak about diverse topics, including the words in the Bible. Psalm 23 was his favorite; the inner voice in me would process what he shared for my understanding. I later learned it was the Holy Spirit. He spoke wisdom and truth to me. I decided I would follow that voice, as it led me through some rough and excruciating challenges in my journey to maturity and even death threats as I progressed in life.

At the age of thirty, I was living in Hawaii, and it was time to move forward. I heard the Voice of Truth prompt me to go to Maryland. It was in Maryland that I reconnected with my best friend from back home, NY. It was he that led me to the Lord and taught me all about the Trinity, and my spirit man began to grow exponentially. I understood more truth through reading the Bible as I desperately wanted to know why I am here on earth. I remember the Lord telling me, “Don’t read your Bible for head knowledge, become what you read.”

Two years into rededicating my life to God as an adult, and learning to understand more about my previous experiences in Him, I had a dream of my father going to heaven. In the dream, I saw my dad standing next to my next-door neighbor, who had passed away six months prior. I woke up crying and hysterical. I was not sure how to do spiritual warfare to stop him from dying. I called my siblings back home, and woke them, and told them to go check on my dad. He was not answering my calls, they asked me, “Did you dream something?” I said “Yes.” They got to his house and knocked on his door frantically until he came and opened it. When my Dad opened the door, he said, “What in the ham sandwich is going on? Why are you banging on my door at 3 am?” Their reply was, “Jeanie had a dream." He called me, and I cried and yelled at him out of fear, and he repeatedly said, “Jeanie, I’m ok” many times. He passed six months later. I grieved for a long time for him. I missed our conversations; it was my first encounter with grief. It challenged me, so I kept pressing into Father God’s presence. As I sat with the Lord, He told me, “I gave him to you to teach you wisdom, but he taught you a few other things I now need to break from you.“

Another season of shaking began in my life with grace that would transfigure and transform me more into my true identity. The pressure increased in all aspects of my life. I trusted God. My spirit man began to stretch and blossom—growing into who “He” created me to be. I began to grow exponentially with more of Him and less of me through meditating in the Word, praying, and fasting. Each day, I surrendered more and more to my God, Adonai. With each day, I “knew” I was becoming less of who I thought I was and more of who He created me to be. I found there were many things I learned in life as I was growing through a process and maturing that I had to let go of. I realized some things learned are for seasons only. I began to understand when my tree of life was shaking. He was building and preparing me for new seasons, times of provision release, expansion and authenticity was breaking forth. Like when spring brings tender buds and fresh leaves; summer unveils vibrant blossoms and fruit. Then came fall and winter, ushering in winds of change that stripped away what was no longer needed. Though the tree stood bare, it remained rooted—intact for a new season of rest for new growth. I learned that grief has a voice and so does pain, especially excruciating pain, but Adonai’s is louder. When I took the time to examine what has been birthed in my seasons of suffering, I examined my character and perseverance and found hope broke forth into new growth. Like a seed breaking through the ground and blooms becoming visible from the sun beaming on it daily, I grew into a beautiful, fragrant flower with the scent of Baal Perazim… The Lord who breaks through.

Psalm 84:11 For the Lord God is a sun and shield; The Lord bestows grace and favor and honor; No good thing will He withhold from those who walk uprightly.

May Prophetic Words

May is the month of breaking forth, growth is visible and blossoming. What was planted in your life begins to grow exponentially. Shaking occurs only to remove what hinders growth. Transparency ~ (walking in your true Identity)

Authenticity ~ (the quality of being real, true, genuine)

Vulnerability~ functioning in a state of openness ) Are established, especially in leadership, Preparation and Provision Release, Rising and upward Expansion, Surrendered Will

May’s Prophetic Words Challenge:

Take a moment to think about areas in your life where you are blooming and growth is visible. (Ask Holy Spirit to highlight them if you are unable to see them)

Ponder those areas where shaking had occurred and you are breaking forth into the new true you, Vulnerable, Authentic and rising upward in expansion.

Are you Preparing for Provision?

Have you Surrender more of your Will!

When you see and feel change as you encounter more of yourself through Him, step through the door of Truth and trust the steps to become one with the new reality of you.

Romans 8:28 And we know [with great confidence] that God [who is deeply concerned about us] causes all things to work together [as a plan] for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to His plan and purpose. And Remember all things work together for your good.

Blossom and Release your Fragrance

Iconverge Team